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In a Dream (2008)
IMDB rating: 7.60
Plot: Over the past four decades, artist Isaiah Zagar has covered more than 50,000 square feet of Philadelphia with stunning mosaic murals. In A Dream is a documentary feature film that chronicles his work and his tumultuous relationship with his wife, Julia. It follows the Zagars as their marriage implodes and a harrowing new chapter in their life unfolds. An exploration of the fallout that ensues when the line between art and life is blurred beyond distinction.
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Directors: Zagar Jeremiah
Actors: Zagar Isaiah,Zagar Ezekiel,Documentary,
What is wrong with me? My doctor can't even explain this?
I’ll give the whole story i was a very happy outgoing energetic person before all of this, about 3 months ago i started buying marijuana from a new person note that Ive been off pot at this point for 2 months and plan to remain that way, the stuff i bought always looked a little funny like so much crystal you could barely see the plant, smelt unlike usual marijuana etc. around 2 weeks after i started buying his stuff i got a bad flu i was coughing up dark mucus the entire day eventually that went away and 2 weeks after that ended i had multiple panic attacks that would last 9 hours at a time involving tremors, depersonalization/derealisation, visual disturbances, depression, utter fear, paranoid delusions, suicidal thoughts and what i can only explain as this very tense insanely hyper feeling that would not even let me sit, lay down or stop moving for that matter i was forced to pase violently back and forth the entire time and couldn’t stop these occured every night for a week and a half then when they finally stopped i had severe anxiety and depression i couldn’t sleep without waking up with high blood pressure, tinnitus and foggy vision mixed with de-realization the feeling i was in a bad dream i couldn’t function at work i had to quit my job and eventually became agoraphobic my face also broke out with intense acne which Ive never had, now I’m slowly getting better day by day its been 2 months now off the pot and still have anxiety, mild depression and violent mood swings which occur several times a day but i can at least function again i have medication to help me through this (Effexor XR which I’m not taking and lorazepam which i take 1 every 4 days) but what I’m wondering is if anyone has any theories about what happened to me my doctor is only interested in covering up the symptoms and can’t seem to answer any of my question I’m a 22 year old male 5′11 in good shape i work out and exercise i also had blood work done that came back fine
Better follow what ever doctor says and hope doctor don’t want to say as he knows your cycology.
Venkat | Feb 04, 2010
Not that unusual.
You got some bad weed mixed with ??????
or
Some people develop your symptoms when on weed and the symptoms continue when they stop smoking and sometimes through life.
Not much written or said about this on posts. Good for you for posting. Every pot smoker here should read it.
I hope things turn around for you.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cannabis_%2 8drug%29#Forms
Kelle | Feb 04, 2010
All of your physical symptoms are as a result of intense panic disorder. I should know, I had it for six yrs. I don’t know how I survived. Mine wasn’t pot related, or drug related at all, but I have helped a lot of people and probably half were ‘initiated’ into panic disorder from pot. First thing you need to know is that you are physically ok. And that the panic issue, although it does manifest in physical side effects, is the responsible issue. You aren’t ill or poisoned or any of that. The real answer to this is too long for YA, but the short answer is that the amygdala of the brain is responsible. It is a switch, and sometimes it can be activated, in some people, by pot smoking. The only way to get it turned off again is literally, through choosing it. You have to convince the brain that the danger is gone, and once you do, the panic and all the crazy physical symptoms will go away. I went from wondering if I would have to live my life out in a mental asylum, to perfectly fine, in just days.. after suffering for six yrs. So don’t even think about the pot any more. It had crystal to it.. so that right there tells you it was strong. But it didn’t harm your body or your brain. It only harmed your relay mechanism that deals with threats, fight or flight, and so on. I do know all of the symptoms you describe and lived through them all and know it isn’t a joke. I know it feels like a real physical illness, as I had myself checked for brain tumors, heart problems, diabetes, and all kinds of rare things as well.. You have my sympathy, but you also have my promise if you can get your thoughts in line this will go away totally and just be a bad dream. I suggest a place to start is to read a book called Panic to Power by Lucinda Bassett. And contact me if you need support online.
SethSpeaks | Feb 04, 2010
well it obviously wasn’t JUST marijuana
it could be a lot of things.
I recommend getting stronger benzo’s. i know this sounds evil but drinking alcohol may help.
see a psychiatrist soon because you definitely need help.
interested | Feb 04, 2010
How much weed did you smoke? I ask this because one of my friends was a major pot head. I say major because he would smoke 50 blunts in a few hours and smoke some more through out the day. He ended up going to jail and of course couldn’t smoke anymore. Some of the symptoms he was explaining to me seem like some of the symptoms you have now. So it’s probably just a marijuana withdrawal thing. I”m sure in a few months you’ll be fine.
Savs | Feb 04, 2010
My theory is that the marijuana you bought was contaminated with some other drug such as meth or cocaine. Marijuana is not supposed to have crystals all over it. The strange smell is another clue that there was something else added to it.That substance is probably what caused your symptoms. Only the dealer that sold you the contaminated marijuana knows for sure.
Since you don’t know what you took, it’s hard to say how long it will take to get all of it out of your system or how long the aftereffects will last. If your blood tests were normal, that’s a good sign. If you have any of that marijuana left, perhaps it could be taken to a lab and tested to see what was in it.
I think you are wise to be cautious about taking Effexor as this antidepressant can have side effects of its own and is very hard to get off of. You say you were a happy, outgoing person before this happened, so you probably don’t have clinical depression anyway. The depressed mood and violent mood swings are probably nothing more than withdrawal symptoms from whatever drugs were in that marijuana.
Lorazepam is OK because it will help you stay calm and ease your anxiety. It can be addictive though, so you don’t want to stay on it any longer than you have to. In the meantime all you can do is be patient while your mind and body heal from the poison that you took. Get lots of rest, eat right, keep exercising, and I’m sure you will start feeling more like yourself soon. Good luck!
Margaret | Feb 04, 2010
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